i went for a walk today..
didn't really intend to, but found that i needed to kill about 15 minutes of time, so i took a walk... i was waiting for that silver shop, where i had some pieces being fixed at, to re-open after the prayer.. that's why i needed to kill time.. i was lucky enough to find a parking space near the shop and was not willing to give it up... plus i wasn't gonna sit in the car and wait.. so i thought i'd go for a walk around the area...
it was crowded.. it was sunset time, so everyone was out... some to buy stuff, some to go out of the confinement of their four-walled houses, some to get a breathe of fresh air, and some for absolutely no apparent reason (i guess i'm included in the last group!)... it's a shopping area, in the heart of heliopolis, where it's so famous for its abundance of jewelery shops (making the public mainly ladies).. at every corner u'd find a place for refreshments, whether a traditional coffee place 'ahwa' or a more sophisticated outlet for juice and ice-cream..
since i belonged to the no-apparent-reason group and i ain't particularly interested in jewelery, all i did was observe the people.. mainly their facial expressions... for me, it was like a movie scene where i hit the mute button... ladies who stop at every single jewelery shop to check the display (what's funny is that almost all of them had already too much jewelery on, which makes u wonder why the hell they want more, guess it's the female affinity for the 'bling bling').. there were alot of couples too.. going for the engagement ring i suppose, or at least hoping for it... some guy groups walking around checking out the ladies, which is a normal scene in egyptian streets nowadays as they can't think of anything else to do.. shop owners were practicing this tradition of having a small stole infront of their shops where they sit and occasionally get up to serve a passer-by customer..
it went on for 10 minutes and i was fed up!!... people r so dull... believe it or not, but they all had the same dull range of expressions on their faces.. from a frown to complete anger.. it was so dull... i didn't see a single smile.. instead i saw burdened faces.. everybody's walking with a thousand question marks jumping around over their heads... u can't see a glimpse of fulfillment, satisfaction, or enjoyment.. it was just so dull..
anyway finally the lady re-opened the shop and i got my stuff.. but as i was driving back home, i was thinking, 'man, i definitely don't belong here'..
i ain't trouble-free.. i have my share of bull-shit.. but at least i am still living.. those people i saw, they r dead.. definitely dead..
c'mon... life's unfair... so deal with it... duh!!
20 September 2005
09 September 2005
2005
good morning...
what a beautiful morning this is.. it's a friday.. the ninth day in the ninth month of the year 2005.. yeah, the year 2005.. what a year!!.. i mean i was born on 1977 and i've lived through alot of 19 somethings, and only a handful of 20 somethings.. but this one, 2005, is absolutely the most important.. the one with the most effect on me.. u know, among other things, it's events that shape ones life.. but we often remember them as events not as dates.. like someone saying, 'a milestone in my life was my graduation,' or maybe 'the turning point of my life was my first job.'... sometimes we remember the event first, then we might associated it with a date.. 'the milestone of my life was my graduation from college which was 1999,' or 'the turning point of my life was my first job which started 1998.'... and i personally have a bunch of those as well.. those events that left a mark in my life and i always remember them along with their dates.. but with 2005, it's a different story.. the year itself is the milestone.. the year itself is a turning point in my life.. yeah it's events after all, but having too many, too big in the same year would give the year the lead i guess.. ok, i'll be more presice.. so far, the first 9 months of 2005 have been like the most important in my life... (we don't usually count the 9 month before we're born when we're still in the womb, which is a pity really cuz that's when we started existing, it's not coming out from in there to this world that counts!!)..
the thing is, it ain't finished yet.. and i have every reason to believe that in the coming few months, 2005 will still behave the same way.. being a year to remember.. a year that would have all the impact on my future.. a year which will set the pace for the rest of my life.. a year where i got to discover alot.. about people and aboput myself.. a year when i first started seeing things in a different way... a year when i stopped being lonesome.. a year when i felt the sense of purpose.. a year when i know i finally belong... a year that made all previous years make sense.. a year where i didn't just know that i have all pieces of the puzzle, but when i actually put them together.. a year where i saw the whole picture for the first time... a year that gave me a thrill to want to continue on living.. a year that......
i'll just go have my coffee and a smoke...
what a beautiful morning this is.. it's a friday.. the ninth day in the ninth month of the year 2005.. yeah, the year 2005.. what a year!!.. i mean i was born on 1977 and i've lived through alot of 19 somethings, and only a handful of 20 somethings.. but this one, 2005, is absolutely the most important.. the one with the most effect on me.. u know, among other things, it's events that shape ones life.. but we often remember them as events not as dates.. like someone saying, 'a milestone in my life was my graduation,' or maybe 'the turning point of my life was my first job.'... sometimes we remember the event first, then we might associated it with a date.. 'the milestone of my life was my graduation from college which was 1999,' or 'the turning point of my life was my first job which started 1998.'... and i personally have a bunch of those as well.. those events that left a mark in my life and i always remember them along with their dates.. but with 2005, it's a different story.. the year itself is the milestone.. the year itself is a turning point in my life.. yeah it's events after all, but having too many, too big in the same year would give the year the lead i guess.. ok, i'll be more presice.. so far, the first 9 months of 2005 have been like the most important in my life... (we don't usually count the 9 month before we're born when we're still in the womb, which is a pity really cuz that's when we started existing, it's not coming out from in there to this world that counts!!)..
the thing is, it ain't finished yet.. and i have every reason to believe that in the coming few months, 2005 will still behave the same way.. being a year to remember.. a year that would have all the impact on my future.. a year which will set the pace for the rest of my life.. a year where i got to discover alot.. about people and aboput myself.. a year when i first started seeing things in a different way... a year when i stopped being lonesome.. a year when i felt the sense of purpose.. a year when i know i finally belong... a year that made all previous years make sense.. a year where i didn't just know that i have all pieces of the puzzle, but when i actually put them together.. a year where i saw the whole picture for the first time... a year that gave me a thrill to want to continue on living.. a year that......
i'll just go have my coffee and a smoke...
