a simple french feeling

je dis..
je t'aime,
mais il n'est pas assez...

et maintenant je dis..
je suis fier,
mais il n'est pas assez aussi...

ainsi je dis..
"mon amour.. l'esprit sera"

"Time After Time"

(lyrics by Sammy Cahn and Jule Styne)
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what good are words i say to u?
they can't convey to u what's in my heart
if you could hear instead
the things i've left unsaid

time after time
i tell myself that i'm
so lucky to be loving u

so lucky to be
the one u run to see
in the evening, when the day is through

i only know what i know
the passing years will show
u've kept my love so young, so new

and time after time
u'll hear me say that i'm
so lucky to be loving you

time stood still ...

they sat on a park bench.. his arm around her.. her head on his shoulder.. holding hands in the moonlight..

there was silence between them.. so profound was their love for each other, they needed no words to express it.. so they sat in silence.. on a park bench.. his arm around her.. her head on his shoulder .. holding hands in the moonlight..

after an indefinite amount of time, she spoke.. "do u love me?".. she knows the answer.. it's always playing in her heart.. she just wants to hear it once again.. she never gets tired of hearing those words.. and knowing this, he replied with a truly jubilant tone, "u know i love u".. "u r my life.. u r my sun, moon and stars.. u r my destiny.. u r my everything"..

again there was silence, as they sat on a park bench.. his arm around her.. her head on his shoulder .. holding hands in the moonlight..

once more she spoke.. "how much do u love me?".. she knows the answer to this one as well, but she loves it when he describes its immensity.. in a wondering yet confident voice he said, "how much do i love u?.. if i could measure the number of water drops in the oceans.. or count the number of sand grains on the sea shores.. it would still be impossible for me to say how much i love u.. my love for u is higher than the heavens.. broader than the universe.. deeper than philosophy.. lighter than a feather.. it's limitless.. it's eternal.. everything must have a limit or an end, except my love for u"..

there was more silence, as they sat on a park bench.. his arm around her.. her head on his shoulder .. holding hands in the moonlight..

she raised her head, looked him in the eye and whispered so tenderly that it almost didn't break the silence, "kiss me".. he slowly leaned forward.. their nosetips swiftly touched creating an aura of blessed euphoria.. then their lips pressed creating fields of alluring endearment felt by their souls.. and exactly at that moment, time stood still..

x

only words ...

human weakness is a display of human strength ...

woooh!.. slow down here.. human weakness is a display of human strength!!!!.. yeah, for only in our moments of weakness, the extent of our strength is shown for what it is.. but do u know who the real winners r.. the real winners r the fools.. the fools who follow the true desires of their hearts.. defying common sense and reasoning.. in a peaceful, light-minded, and passive way, they r the winners...

i guess it's always better to know .. better than forever looking back and wondering 'what if' or saying 'if only'.. it's better to try and fail, than wonder if u could have succeeded..

but have i failed?.. no, i haven’t failed... ok, then have i been a fool?.. well, i guess, yeah, to some extent.. i have been a fool pursuing desires i do not even totally understand.. but after all, that's me .. i always have determination to believe even when all hope is gone.. i have stumbled before.. i have fallen before.. my pride left lying in the dirt before.. but i have never utterly failed.. and all through my struggles, i have demonstrated what it is that i am made of...

i've shown her that i care .. i've shown her that i believe in her .. she knows how i feel .. in fact, her heart holds the secret to understanding all of my actions .. if only she had the insight to seek the answers within .. i have made a difference in her life (i like to believe).. i have believed in her when she didn't believe in herself .. man, i even believe in her right now when i don't believe in myself...

i have lost the little patience i once had.. and i guess i have slipped, with the constant drive to satisfy my stubborn ego.. it was born out of the frustration of longing so much to defy my lifetime loneliness.. and if she just looks through the eyes of her heart, she will understand my motive.. she will see that only someone who truly cares would struggle as such.. just like a fool...

the true winners in life are the unnoticed idols.. those who do not masquerade themselves at the ball, rather prefer to go unmasked.. they may not get what they desire, but they play till the end.. the tragedy is that they usually play with the rules of a desperate heart.. and that's why they go unnoticed..

so, even if i don't win ur prize.. the prize i desire so much.. hope will remain clinging in my chest.. so be it!.. i would rather look back and see that i had done my very best and tried my very hardest, than to say that i gave up without a fight .. and i would rather u look back with admiration in ur heart to the impact i made in ur life.. i would rather have these than succeed in fulfilling my desires without fulfilling ur affections...

all i have is words .. only words .. words to truly capture my revelation .. words to tell you what i feel .. words to try and paint the picture of perfection for u .. words to say, I LOVE YOU ..