only words ...

human weakness is a display of human strength ...

woooh!.. slow down here.. human weakness is a display of human strength!!!!.. yeah, for only in our moments of weakness, the extent of our strength is shown for what it is.. but do u know who the real winners r.. the real winners r the fools.. the fools who follow the true desires of their hearts.. defying common sense and reasoning.. in a peaceful, light-minded, and passive way, they r the winners...

i guess it's always better to know .. better than forever looking back and wondering 'what if' or saying 'if only'.. it's better to try and fail, than wonder if u could have succeeded..

but have i failed?.. no, i haven’t failed... ok, then have i been a fool?.. well, i guess, yeah, to some extent.. i have been a fool pursuing desires i do not even totally understand.. but after all, that's me .. i always have determination to believe even when all hope is gone.. i have stumbled before.. i have fallen before.. my pride left lying in the dirt before.. but i have never utterly failed.. and all through my struggles, i have demonstrated what it is that i am made of...

i've shown her that i care .. i've shown her that i believe in her .. she knows how i feel .. in fact, her heart holds the secret to understanding all of my actions .. if only she had the insight to seek the answers within .. i have made a difference in her life (i like to believe).. i have believed in her when she didn't believe in herself .. man, i even believe in her right now when i don't believe in myself...

i have lost the little patience i once had.. and i guess i have slipped, with the constant drive to satisfy my stubborn ego.. it was born out of the frustration of longing so much to defy my lifetime loneliness.. and if she just looks through the eyes of her heart, she will understand my motive.. she will see that only someone who truly cares would struggle as such.. just like a fool...

the true winners in life are the unnoticed idols.. those who do not masquerade themselves at the ball, rather prefer to go unmasked.. they may not get what they desire, but they play till the end.. the tragedy is that they usually play with the rules of a desperate heart.. and that's why they go unnoticed..

so, even if i don't win ur prize.. the prize i desire so much.. hope will remain clinging in my chest.. so be it!.. i would rather look back and see that i had done my very best and tried my very hardest, than to say that i gave up without a fight .. and i would rather u look back with admiration in ur heart to the impact i made in ur life.. i would rather have these than succeed in fulfilling my desires without fulfilling ur affections...

all i have is words .. only words .. words to truly capture my revelation .. words to tell you what i feel .. words to try and paint the picture of perfection for u .. words to say, I LOVE YOU ..